No Thingness
I sit
I sat
Low
Despair…
Empty
Unsure
Waiting to unfold
Like a rewind of the last signs
Revealed to me
Over a short time
Lockdown
New life they all said
‘Not going to be the same
Never again’
‘Oh no’
Said others
We’ll return
To the churn
The grind
Let them kick my behind
Peel me until I shine
Like the rawness of rain
On the unloved window pane
My heart jumped
We all jumped
But once we knew
We were probably immune
We sat back
Relaxing
Chilling into stilling the fumes of consuming
It all slowed
Right down
We came back to the ground
Did you see the bees
Oh Lord the trees
Can you imagine it took this much for some to even notice
After half or more a lifetime
For once in a lifetime
The beauty
Purity shone
It had never gone
Just been jaded
By our business
Their business
The World’s wants and demands
But hold on Lockdown
World has no wants
Not from us
Other than perhaps we listen
To her heart
So we did
So many did
Three solid months of it
Trapped within the luxurious confines of our laptops and virtual scape
Or walks in the country
And even the lit skyscrapers in town
Looked majestic as a Lord’s crown
We bathed in the chance
To dance in the space
That some took as grace
While for others
It was hell
Rushing from cell to cell
Or patient to patient
“All please just be patient!
Let’s work as a team”
Let’s applaud the meek
Like that Lord with the Crown
A chance for us to all recognise
And sanitise
To familiarise with new eyes
A hug~less world
A brave new world
The end of the world?
Well,
Now,
Four months later
Gosh we’ve made so much chatter
Monkeys in our trees
While so many have been helping
And many
Down on their knees
It seems that some of us
Are returning to our previous life in serving,
Of commerce or trimming
Back to the grind we are spinning
The mill beneath again we are treading
All the while we are dreading
Are we doing the right thing
And why are we doing
And what are we doing for this why?
Oh my Lord!
Lordy oh why
I remember I asked you
Exactly 444 full moons past by
Why
On Earth
Oh Why?
Oh Why?
It took many more of those moons to waxy~wane
Before I ever got a response enough sane
That ‘Be~cause’ was
And still is my answer to ‘why’…
Be-The-Cause
Not the crying victim ‘why?’
Time is now,
Whether past or present
Seize the moment
Life is now
So I sat
Just sitting
Feeling low
Expecting on Zoom
A mid summer’s no~show low
Confidence shot
All the highs of the last few months
Completely forgot
In those moments on Sat
I sat,
It came….
Sat
Nam
Sat
Nam
Sat
Nam
Oh True Name
My true name
Be true
To yourself what you do
For yourself must be true
For others do
Truth for them do
Be true
As I’go (My ego)
Did go
Down the plughole
In to my low
Disappearing in to the void
Lower than lowest of my woes
It died
I now sigh
Just realised
I died
As I sat on that Sat
Did I see
The sea of plays
This life has so far caste upon her sail
The boy, addict, father, friend
The lover, laugher,
Guide,
Snake,
The Preacher,
Teacher and bullshit pretence
It played out before me
Through me
As I died
I saw that ego fly and fly,
Spinning down and round in to the black despair
I watched all the fear,
And anxiety
Which was still trying to hide…
Get sucked in to the hole
The black guru of Void
You can’t avoid
In the End
Being the Cause
From which you come
I saw all the players in this life of ‘mine’
Appear
Like those celebs of a grand Shakespeare
Those that loved me, hated me, smiled me
Or blanked me as they passed
Reflections of my soul
We have all travelled by
In Indra's Net
Out there in the sky
In here in my mind
Did I die
In to the low
Diamond my mind
Die mind
It died!
Nothing remained
No face
Body
Nor show
I saw it all go
Dissolve in to ground
Wormed and as bones one day found
Out in the ethers
My essence set free
Within the flames
Grasping and non grasping
Both had let go
Letting go
All gone
Beyond and beyond
Joy,
Bliss,
Seeking,
Wanting,
Craving and averting
Perverting and flirting
All these with the ‘me, my and mine’
I saw them all go
Then
The eyes which had seen this,
Ears which had heard
Heart that hurt
All burned in the beyond
No thing ness was I
No I
Not I
As by and by
Moment by moment
Dipping in and out
Flitting like a flutterby
Not I
Not I
Not I
So,
This uncertainty which had wreaked havoc
Over four months of LockDownMe
Had finally released
My heart had been torn
‘Tween this way or that
Back to the old way
Or choose the fear
And fly anyway?
All was clear
All is clear
This dream
That we dream
Which at times may seem
To be a prison
Without choices
A persecution chamber
For others’ vices
Stop!
Just Stop
May we stop
Often enough to see
If I can change the small self
I can taste
The real me x:)
Matt Gluck ~ Sat 08 08 2020