My heart teaches me
To open itself
To the rest of me
The best of me
To the world around me
I open myself
Let the love in my garden
Through my doors
And into my chambers
Healing my pain
My fear
My shame
That remained
Inside
Scared to love
To live
As completely as I could
Desire drove me
Insanity took hold of me
Vision blurred
As I lost sight of reality
Wires Crossing
I’s not dotting
All was lost
And the host got cross
We stopped one day
I heard him say
“Listen mate
I’m here ‘til late
You’ve read the lines
Heard them say
‘Heaven on earth’
Well
It’s in this play
Stop fooling
Look inward for ruling
Because
“I’m inside”
God did cry
Many mystical moons ago
All alone
Life went slow
Walls and fences
Shutters on the car
Scared to love
Everything drugs n bars
Confused and dazed
No one to help?
God shouted once more
“I’m at the door!”
And so I gave it all up
And started walking
This winding path
No more talking
Matt Gluck 5th October 2002
This poem refers to the period shortly after my mum passed away, summer 1995. I was having great difficulty accepting reality without her physical presence.